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Friday, August 27, 2010

The Lord's Goodness

The other day I was talking to some friends from the distance learning program I completed, and something was brought to my attention. They were talking about how each one had met through the forums and chat provided by the distance learning program, College Plus! While they were talking about the subject, I stopped and thought back to how I got to know these people, whom I now call friends, and to where I am right now. I looked back and saw God’s infinite goodness in a seemingly awful situation for me at the time. I’m not sure if I’ve related the beginning of this story or not, but I was originally supposed to attend a nearby University after I had graduated from a community college. The plan fell through, and my mom found out about College Plus! My parents enrolled me in this distance learning program, but I was reluctant about the whole situation. I had a hard time accepting this route, that was definitely God’s will. I ended up starting the program hoping to get my degree over with as soon as possible. I didn’t care about getting to know my coach or any of the students on the forums. All I wanted was a degree. I couldn’t see the reason behind God’s plan in that area of my life, as I felt nothing had been achieved by enrolling into the program except getting my degree faster. I completed my time with the distance learning program at the end of the year and was ready to enroll into the last phase of my education. I still was affiliated with the distance learning program, because I still had coaching calls. My mom suggested I should quit Facebook for a few months until I finished my degree, in order to keep me focused on that and off of Facebook. So I did, and I couldn’t stand the first week! I was so bored I clicked on the College Plus! Forums page, then eventually I decided to see what the Chat room was all about. My first intention in the chat room was to try it out once, and never get on again, just to see what the chat was all about. But the first person I met in the chat room was so very nice to me, I decided to get on again and again. That was all it took. I went into the chat room, and that’s how I met so many wonderful and Godly friends, some who have even become like brothers and sisters to me. Although we’re all scattered throughout the country, I have been encouraged spiritually and been able to meet like-minded Christians via the internet. So as my friends were reflecting their first posts and how they got online, I realized that God had intended College Plus! to help me out spiritually. Imagine if I had never quit Facebook? I would not know all the wonderful people God has placed into my life. I am so glad the Lord allowed me to be able to realize the goodness in His plan for my life. I don’t regret not attending the University of my choice. I also think about how stubborn and bitter my heart was, so much so, that I would not allow God to work in my life, and so He removed something from my life that was hindering me from His plan to be followed in order to show me His goodness. Isn’t God wonderful? He is so kind and accepting when we are not willing. My heart did soften to my coach as well. She has been a great spiritual example in my life, and I have enjoyed getting to know her as opposed to just knowing who she is. It is wonderful to look back on the rough times in life and see God’s guidance throughout the whole situation. God is GOOD!

Friday, August 6, 2010

Resting in the Lord

It seems as the older I get, the more questions I get concerning my relationship status. I am usually taken aback at first, because I am not expecting the question. I know though that as I get older it’s expected, and sometimes I feel sorry that I have to repeat the same old answer, “No not at this moment.” I feel like I’ve said that for a few decades, total exaggeration, but sometimes I’d just like to be able to say “Yes,” just to feel comfortable and “normal” per se. I have to admit that the only reason I want to say “Yes” would be only for the benefit of others, to fit in and not worry about what others think. In all honesty, I am pretty much content with being single, but I find others are not satisfied for me. As I listened to this song the other night, I thought what kind of love from a human being could match the love of God? Indeed I’d rather have my God by my side over the conditional love of a human being.

Hello sunshine it's been too long
since I felt your beautiful warmth upon my face
And how much have I missed
'Cause I've been focused on everything wrong
This road just felt so long
I forgot to lift my head to see you

Oh my lovely shining for me
Let my eyes see all the beauty

Hello sunshine since the moment
That I felt your beautiful warmth
I knew that I'd do anything
To keep this feeling of you
My heart comes alive
Oh who could add a day to this life
By drowning every dark sky

Oh my lovely shining for me
Let my eyes see all the beauty

Fill my dark skies
Make me see the light
Life is fine so bring in the sunshine
`~Barlow Girl
Indeed I’d been focusing on everything wrong, and instead of focusing on the relationship I have with my Lord, I missed out on His surpassing greatness. Once I remembered my Saviour’s love I was overwhelmed and felt just like the song said. How can I ever be unhappy with my Saviour by my side?

Tonight the stars are dancing
To the songs the angels sing
I hear You whisper on the breeze
And every sound echoes the rhythm
Of your heart as I begin to fade
Into this lovely night
I’m alive

Cause our worlds collide
I’m lost in time
Heaven kisses me tonight
Your heart with mine
It beats in time
Now I know why I’m alive

Now that I’ve found You
I could never let You go away
You left my life never the same
Sing over me and let me hear the words
You wrote for me
Whisper the words and set my spirit free
Oh, sing to me
~Barlow Girl