Wednesday, December 22, 2010
I can remember last year, when I worked at a Christian bookstore, when an older gentleman came up to me and asked what the purpose of a journal was. I explained to him the purpose of a journal, but I also included my way of using a journal- to write down significant spiritual times in my life such as answered prayer. I started a spiritual journal, because I had been so awed by God’s work in my life that I never wanted to forget it, should my memory fail me. It has helped give me a continuous attitude of thanks for His loving-kindness, no matter what. My spiritual journal has been an invaluable tool in my life as I am able to recollect the Lord’s goodness in all the awful situations when I turn to the latter pages and see how He made all things well in the end. I would challenge you to consider doing the same thing as the year 2011 soon approaches.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Awhile back I was thinking about how the female mind works and that infamous statement on my blog post title. I am sure I have some attentive male listeners after reading that first statement, but it’s a topic I think a lot of females think about., I hear that phrase quite often with newly engaged women, “I have waited for this day since I was a little girl.” I find the statement quite odd, to be frank. I don’t believe I ever thought about marriage or even pretending I was getting married as a young girl. Those thoughts just never entertained my mind. Nor have I ever made that my focus in life, although I have to admit, sometimes I do stray away from my true focus, but I have not ever intentionally made marriage my life. I find it sad when I hear young women say that they have waited their entire lives for that one day. Is that all there really is to life? Is not God more than a ceremony? As young women in waiting, we should place the focus of our life on God, not marriage. We should never center our whole entire world around this ceremony so that our life is in sync with the future hope of marriage rather than the future hope of our complete marriage in Christ.
What I want in a husband . . .
I hear that phrase quoted quite often as well while a list is then rattled out after the statement, whether it be talked of out loud or written on a diary. Females seem to HAVE to make a list of how they want their husband to look like, dress, behave, what kind of job he should have, etc. Since when did resumes for a husband come into place? I wonder how males feel about this, considering the amount of pressure laid upon them to perfect such a list? They already have a ton of pressure just from being examined by the Father. I personally have never made out a list in my head or on paper. I feel such an idea to be foolish and silly. What is the point in daydreaming about my future husband’s fashion sense or making endless lists that have to be met by him that have nothing to do with His Godly character? When God brings about the right man, the list will seem futile compared to his best for you and I. I am not saying though that determining important Godly qualities are off limits. Those things should be thought of so when the right time comes, you will be prepared to know what important Godly and belief-minded traits he should have. When one goes off on unimportant lists like the above mentioned in the beginning, that is when it borders on vanity.
I want to be treated like a princess . . .
Seriously? Doesn’t the Bible say we are to be servants? Or am I wrong? We are not here to be treated like a princess by our future husbands. Poor fellows, being left with all the housework on top of a job! We should never let that thought cross our mind lest it let laziness creep into our lives. The husband will already have his plate full with his job, let alone picking up after a female who believes she should do and get whatever she wants. This is one reason why I am very much against Disney Princess movies. I feel it allows silly unbiblical thoughts to entertain the heart of an innocent child. The little girl will grow up feeling that because she is a “princess” she will get what she wants and do almost as much as she pleases. This attitude should never be encouraged but immediately cut off. One should be prepared for marriage with the attitude of a servant’s heart just like Christ.
While we are waiting for our spouse, our minds should be occupied on serving the Lord fully, not deferring to daydreaming thoughts about our future. I admit, as a female, it gets very tough! It takes everything within me just to keep my thoughts focused on Him and not about the future. I want to be wholly devoted to Him and enwrapped so much in His work that I am caught off guard by the future.
Friday, November 12, 2010
When the mother is unfit to bear children, healthwise, should she continue on having more children? I think not. I once heard a story about a family of fourteen children. The last few children had been very difficult pregnancies for the mother, but her husband wanted just one more. So she agreed to it, and she died during childbirth because it was too much on her body. Is it wise to continue having children knowing that they might become motherless when that is unnecessary? I think there are certain lines that shouldn’t be crossed concerning having as many as the Lord wills. I don’t feel God wants us to exhaust ourselves with as many children as we possibly can have. So what do I think?
I feel that physically having as many children as possible is not having as many as God wants us to. For one, I feel that if that were mandated for everyone nobody would have small families. All families would be massive, and it would imply that having small families is wrong. There is nothing wrong with having a small family; in fact, there were several families in the Bible that had few children. Jephthah had one child; Hosea had three children. Those were families where the Bible did not specifically mention they had a hard time bearing any children. Second of all, I believe that having as many children as God wants entails how many children the husband and wife are able to provide for effectively, mostly spiritually. I must admit, I don’t believe having children when there isn’t enough money (and no, I don’t mean saving up for college) is wise. I can remember a family who once wanted six children, but they stopped after three because there just wasn’t enough money to provide for all of them. They were already below poverty level, barely able to feed their family and pay the bills. It would not have been wise to allow the children to go hungry, bills unpaid, all because they felt another child was necessary. If a mother feels she would not be able to effectively care for more than the two children she has, I feel that is her God-given instinct that that is how many He wants her to have for the time being. All that to sum up my thoughts. I do not intend this post to offend anyone whatsoever, nor am I trying to condemn anyone. All comments and questions are very welcome. Please enlighten me with your opinions of this subject! If necessary, I will provide more in-depth detailed posts on the thoughts aforementioned as well .
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
I don’t believe anyone knows my views on this particular subject in all actuality. I enjoy big families immensely! I desire to have a huge family when I get older, simply because that’s what I’ve wanted for most of my life. With that being said, I don’t see anything wrong with a small family. Perhaps it is because I myself come from a TINY family. I see the benefits of a small family. Both small and big families have their pros and cons.
With that being said, I’ll discuss the familiar interpretations that are given about this verse,
And God blessed Noah and his sons and said to them, "Be fruitful and multiply and fill the earth.
(Gen 9:1 ESV)
That verse is quoted quite often, yet the command was specifically given to Noah and Adam & Eve. The command is never seen in the New Testament, and it is quite interesting that the only times it was recorded in the Old Testament were when the population of the earth was down to a handful. There was a reason why these specific people were told to multiply. A lot of people would argue that the word used in the passage, “multiply,” means to have many children. A closer look at the definition of “multiply,” just means to replicate, implying at least one offspring, as that is what replication is. Multiply is not a specific number, therefore that verse should never even be limited to a number of how many equals the word, “multiply.”
Therefore, I do not see this verse as a Biblical explanation for having large families. I don’t think anyone can say that we are commanded to have many children based upon this verse. There is nothing wrong with having a large family or a small family for that matter, I just believe we need to keep things in their original context.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Once I finished my degree, I expected finding a job to be VERY difficult, even knowing that the promised job a few years earlier might not turn out at all. I sent my resume there anyway, only to be dismayed at the rejection, as the teaching positions were full with no openings. I kept sending in my resume to other places, with no leads. Nobody was hiring at all. It was too late in the year to hire a teacher, but I had graduated kind of late and I specifically felt led not to look for jobs until around the beginning of August. I had maintained to that standard only to be discouraged from the lack of job openings. Instantly I became confused. I wondered if I had majored in the right field. What was God’s purpose in having me major in English if nothing was to come from it? I became doubtful and discouraged as months passed and earnest prayer seemed to be unheard. I never knew job hunting would be so difficult! Once again I earnestly prayed and fasted, as I knew that when I would fast, God always answered my prayers. I expected him to answer right away, but from experience I know that God works differently from anything we can expect or imagine. God hadn’t been ignoring me or forgetting me; He had heard, He was just working in HIS time. About one week later, I received a phone call from someone interested in interviewing me. I was excited and nervous, as I was unsure if this was ordained by God. So right before I called her back to set up an interview I prayed that God would close the door if this was NOT His will. I called the lady back and ended up finding out the job was too far away from me; it was not worth it to commute, nor is commuting an option for me. I ended up declining the interview. I was very discouraged about it, but at peace, knowing I’d done the right thing. Once again, exactly one week later, I received an e-mail from someone in the area concerning a teaching opportunity. It had taken her about one month to reply as my e-mail had been in her junk mail. How she retrieved it, I only know that it must have been of God. I responded and we set up an appointment to meet. It went very well, and she asked if I would like to train to become a teacher. This was definitely an answer to all my prayers and the fulfillment of the promise I felt God had given to me a few years earlier. He had been saving this beautiful opportunity just for me! The fulfillment of the promise of a homeschool school in a Christian setting as a teacher fit this new job opportunity to a tee! It was so amazing to see that God had closed doors to open something even better! The impossibilities of even becoming a teacher without any prior experience is phenomenal. What’s even more mind boggling is being able to teach homeschoolers in a Christian setting, as there aren’t too many places that hire. So far I don’t have a job since I’m training, but Lord willing I will in January, as a teacher.
Everything worked out in God’s timing. Even though it took a few months, I wouldn’t have it any other way. God’s ways and timing are best, and I love to see how He works in my life. I do know He ordains every intricate detail and is so involved in every detail of my life and yours. He loves us so much that He chooses to know us in a personal way. I thank God, for being my God!
Sunday, September 5, 2010
I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
(Php 3:14 ESV)
I felt like God had intended that verse for me as it correlated with the meaning of my name. It’s very fitting for the meaning, isn’t it?
The life verse I gave to myself,
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.
(Heb 12:1-3 ESV)
described my goal perfectly when I was in high school running track. I used that verse to try and help me maintain my focus during practice, and also found it very applicable to the Christian life. I felt it summed up my whole being.
The life verse given to me by my parents is
as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death.
(Php 1:20 ESV)
I think it is a great reminder of how I am to represent Christ.
Life verses are important to have in order to keep our goals in perspective, to remember that the end of man is to glorify God in all that we do. Do you have life verses?
Friday, August 27, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Hello sunshine it's been too long
since I felt your beautiful warmth upon my face
And how much have I missed
'Cause I've been focused on everything wrong
This road just felt so long
I forgot to lift my head to see you
Oh my lovely shining for me
Let my eyes see all the beauty
Hello sunshine since the moment
That I felt your beautiful warmth
I knew that I'd do anything
To keep this feeling of you
My heart comes alive
Oh who could add a day to this life
By drowning every dark sky
Oh my lovely shining for me
Let my eyes see all the beauty
Fill my dark skies
Make me see the light
Life is fine so bring in the sunshine
Indeed I’d been focusing on everything wrong, and instead of focusing on the relationship I have with my Lord, I missed out on His surpassing greatness. Once I remembered my Saviour’s love I was overwhelmed and felt just like the song said. How can I ever be unhappy with my Saviour by my side?
Tonight the stars are dancing
To the songs the angels sing
I hear You whisper on the breeze
And every sound echoes the rhythm
Of your heart as I begin to fade
Into this lovely night
Cause our worlds collide
I’m lost in time
Heaven kisses me tonight
Your heart with mine
It beats in time
Now I know why I’m alive
Now that I’ve found You
I could never let You go away
You left my life never the same
Sing over me and let me hear the words
You wrote for me
Whisper the words and set my spirit free
Oh, sing to me
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
1.) Christians who felt in order to gain converts a compromise needed to be reached with the non-christians, such as letting them keep their house idols while maintaining the status of a Christian
2.) Christians trying to misconstrue reality and provide "happy" endings to stories that were not happy in the midst of the clash between Muslim and Christians
3.) English Christians living lavishly and comfortably within India, unwilling to sacrifice their life of luxury to better help the Indian people
4.) Missionaries unabashed by the thought that they could not find one Indian Christian who would willingly help the missionaries out without pay
5.) Missionaries that were not phased by the fact they had not one convert in about 5 yrs!
I finally felt like someone understood how I felt about Christianity, although what I saw wrong with it was quite different from Amy Carmichael's Christianity of the day- here are a few that I found
1.) When famous preachers use the Lord's name in vain or speak irreverently while praying to God
2.) When Toy Story 3 has Christians crying over the ending- yet they can't cry over the lost souls dying and going to hell
3.) When Christians have become so much like the world, they don't even realize they look like the world
Those were just a few things God was revealing my eyes to, especially after a long conversation with a friend concerning certain issues about the state of Christianity- which in turn made me realize that I was slowly being sucked in to point number 3 and 4 as well. It saddened me to realize that some of my values and morals had gone down to the standard of the world too. As Christians, we're called to give up everything and live for God. After praying this morning and reevaluating my standards as a Christian, I realized there was one important thing I needed to give up- Facebook. A friend of mine, who I have taken in as my little sister was disappointed about not having a Facebook. She explained to me why she couldn't have one- and I have to admit that it was a very good reason! Here I was- using adblocker to avoid bad ads,and avoiding looking at other profiles, because you can't control what kind of content other people put up on facebook. Somehow I was justifying my actions and compromising as well. It bothered me that I would set an example like that, not to mention I'd been convicted over this for awhile. So I finally gave it up in order to do what was right in God's eyes. That was just a little problem of mine, yet it was a treacherous pitfall for me! I thought about how awful our compromises are as Christians- we should look less like the world, not more like it. Are there any compromises you have made that you need to get rid of too?
Friday, May 28, 2010
“I wasn’t having any fun. . . so I came right down and never went back. That was 35 yrs. ago.”
“Admirable( in a sarcastic tone) – and you haven’t done a thing since?”
“Oh yes, just the things I wanted to do – collected stamps, went to the zoo, and even found time to notice when spring came around. . .”
I burst into laughter thinking how ridiculous the grandfather sounded. Since when is going to the zoo an accomplishment? As I was laughing at the foolishness of the grandpa, I stopped and thought to myself about what a pity it really was to live a life like that. To think, there are really people out in this world who believe that living life as they please is what life is about- fun. Those thoughts are in accordance with a worldview- not God’s view. As a Christian, I know that I am to live in a manner that pleases God. I couldn’t help but think about myself and actions in life, “Am I wasting my life like the old man in the movie?”. Will my life be something to be laughed at as well? Will I stand before the throne and say to God, “This is what I have accomplished- I collected stamps and went to the zoo.” How sad that would be! I want to live my life in a way that pleases God at all times. I want my life to say in the famous words of Piper, “Living to prove that He is more precious than life.”
Monday, April 5, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
It's been such a long time since I've posted, so many things going on, and I can't wait to see what the Lord does, because I shall have another posting shortly after this one too!
This time though, my topic on contentedness is very different from my previous posts. I am an only child, as most folks already know. I've had such a hard time dealing with being an only child ever since I was little. I used to cry for a sibling, that's how upset I was over my circumstances. In the past month though, I've grown even more discontent with my circumstances, because I am now ever surrounded with big families. My friends all have big families. I'm the only one who is an only child. All I could think about was how unfair it was not to have an older brother, or a young sibling to spoil. I kept thinking, "WHY?". That's all I kept thinking, until I had two friends exhort me in the faith. They explained to me what I already knew, but somehow I suddenly realized they were right. God does have a special purpose for my life that no one else but I can fulfill. After I started thinking about our conversation, I mulled over this thought and suddenly realized how selfish I'd really been. I am one of the very few and fortunate children who have their parents all to themselves any time of the day, and yet I'm complaining? It didn't make sense. I suddenly realized just how selfish I was compared to those with many siblings. I have time all to myself; I am bound by no one. I can do as I please without being bothered. I don't have to watch younger siblings. I don't even have to share with anyone. I suddenly realized that I was a spoiled only child. That hurt, pretty bad! I've never thought of myself as spoiled, until I took a good look at those with many siblings and watched their lives for awhile. They weren't selfish; they gave willing to their siblings. They had all the kind, compassionate, and giving traits that I didn't have. Then I looked at myself and thought, "What have done?". Nothing was my response. Since then, I've realized the blessings of being an only child, and I have learned how to correct the selfish habits gained by being an only child. I realized that I needed to make the time for others, to exhort others, to give of my time to others, more than ever before. And I've realized that being an only child is a special blessing by God. I am very privileged, for only a handful of people are only children.