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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Reflections of the past year

With 2010 right around the corner, I was thinking about the ways God has worked in my life from where I was last year to now. It's amazing where I find myself right now. To think that God had a plan for me in March of 09 other than my own plans, and I can assure you that they are much better than I could've ever expected or hoped for.

In January '09, I was excited to be going to the University of my dreams. I had everything planned out- work study, the volunteer opportunities I'd choose, dorms, sightseeing the city with a friend who lived there etc. The list could go on! I was thrilled, but there was a small problem- the money. The huge loan that would loom over my parents' heads and mine; the loan that could not be paid for with meager scholarship money I'd earned. Still my dad agreed that my happiness was the only option. He wanted me to go to a Christian University, and in my house, dad's word is law, and he never takes his word back once he says something. As the month passed, something unexpected happened. My dad had a change of heart. He'd been praying about my attendance at the University, and decided that the debt was too much; it would be very wrong to be in such debt that could easily be avoided. I was surprised! My dad had been so set on me going off and away, that I never expected this reaction. I could only assume that it came from the Lord in answer to my mother's prayers. See, my mother had not been pleased with the amount the University would cost, so naturally she prayed that the Lord would open my dad's eyes to see that having such a huge debt was wrong. Once my parents broke the news to me and told me that I would not be going, I was devastated! I cried so much over such a small thing, but I had my hopes set on going to the University. At that moment, I was at a low point in life. I couldn't see the plan God had for me. I couldn't see anything in the future that could be better than going to the University of my choice. After a couple of weeks, the Lord gave me peace about the decision. I felt better, still sad, but I knew the Lord had something better for me, although at the time I couldn't imagine anything better. Instead of the University, we choose College Plus. It was a wonderful decision, but I still couldn't see the goodness of the Lord in College Plus over my University. Then in May, I decided to apply for a job after praying for a while about one. The first and only job I applied for was at a Christian bookstore. Two days after I applied, I received a phone call for an interview! I was thrilled, and decided to continue praying about the Lord's direction in my life. I ended up getting the job, and I started in June '09. After about six months of working there, I suddenly realized the change of plans the Lord had for me were better than mine. I've met some really wonderful people there, friends that I would never have had the opportunity to meet if I had gone away to a University. I enjoy every single one of them that I've met and befriended, and I can happily say I don't regret not going to the University. I must say that if I were given the option now of attending the University for free, I'd keep the bookstore I work at and all the wonderful people I've met over the University. I'm so glad the Lord intervened, for I wouldn't have it any other way!